hazecitron

call me
sometime
Adam in
the garden
of midsummer eve
today
just wanted to feel
that round plastic on
my hips one more time
droppin' tears
droppin' seeds
suntime, this is it
when I'm
most alive
keep dancin'
to throw
'em off but
gotta cry
as soon as
I'm alone
afraid to get cut
open again
I told 'em
to take it out
what the fuck else
could anyone want
I cannot
I brushed my hair
today in the mirror
in my bra
and underwear
wet dreams
reminded of a time
in high school
young
doing my hair
makeup
kilt to my knees
multicoloured
ribbony scrunchies
blue and green
eyeshadows imagining
to myself
someday I'll be older
grown out
pretty
have a boyfriend
a motorcycle
it's funny
better in some ways
freedom is how
you perceive
your life
I can blend
disappear
I know
stay strong
but damn
five surgeries in
and hey
I got this
kinda don't
shaking
I'll dance one more time
and I'll cry

how ya feel?
how ya feel?

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jellyking summer

jerkin it off 

wide eyed 

to the sunrise

won’t lie

but 

I’ll hide mine

if you hide yours 

rose tinted frames babe

let’s not 

I’d rather 

get lost

down every road 

follow me

or don’t 

love is easy

we all know

I do strange things

attract strange types

can’t help but find 

the walls exhale out 

towards aquatic expanses 

I walk to the water

always towards the water 

where you feel 

disoriented like you’re not

quite where you were just 

a moment ago 

got an imagination 

take the Empress like a pirate

portals, pathways

if you knew the spirits

that mingled in my words

evil ways babe 

you’d have let me

run away long

so long ago 

makehave

hot damn

god lit 

the sky 

with our eyescape

time, human 

invention 

oh my

distance, perception 

streetcar 

metro

little oval window

fastrack 

past wondering 

why

meshed neurological 

skycrack to

your mouth 

open

sweet nectarine 

juicy

feel the scars in me

been cut 

help yourself

inside and 

when you’re gone 

cruising long paved stretches

think of this 

time is a dream

liquid, fertile 

seeds in soil

strum it while

I’m panting here 

spinning 

whirling dervish kitten 

put it 

onto my shivering 

open blossom

I’ll come

to kiss you again and against

white birch and cedar

I promise

humans

feed it

these certain aspects 

ratios of time they’re 

moments 

it’s like you gotta grab

’em by the handlebars 

because they’re

aspects where you 

might try to hide 

try to change your fate 

we aren’t given the

choices we create

am I asleep

is it up to me 

love is not a controlled substance

it slips in like fentanyl 

I lost my patience 

yesterday but I

see no escape from 

questions without answers 

and yeah I’ll talk 

stories are meant to be told

I won’t draw draw draw 

it’s just I want 

I wanted it for an hour 

the greatest gift

would only be 

a lifetime 

and that’s so hard to find 

damn

I’ll draw it

I’ll believe deep down 

even though the jaded 

shattered shit keeps 

poking in my 

elevator going up 

tender take it for a ride 

good times

take it

in the 

when does it 

come

alms for the universe 

the busted heartwhite sweat 

I’ll give it 

all my life

be my life 

just a satellite 

can be 

can’t be without you 

love

Flashing lights

Arms outstretched to either side, wide. Bright eyed. This is your space, in which you create. Where your heart beats, it emits. A subtle, open vibration, it pulsates. In Space, this is where you hold your place. You allow, beckoning hands forth. Anything and everyone, come. Let me learn, let you teach. Let it be. Drifting into the ever forever. Darkness. Wide and open, twinkly eyed, miss outer space

From that void, that dark and open lady. Allows another, a more forceful one. She blows and whispers into your ear. Taking up the space, her mother. She sees what’s around and takes it all in. Air, whooshing and whirling, the girl, how she spins. She sees the delights, she flows up to great hights. Like wings her arms spread down to see something alight:

Another one born, from the two, there come three! A Fiery being, her energy is for seeing. Bright, hot, she takes up air and space. She uses them to expand and spread light onto various planes. The twisted flame spins, taking all that surrounds her. Everyone wants her, everyone likes her. But coming too close, to touch, it’s hot, hot!

‘Til you dip your finger down in that cool, soft, water spot. Ah, here. Here she comes. Dripping wet, Water mama océanne. Slipping through vibrations into deep, dreamy thoughts. But don’t get too caught, she’s cold when she wants. She’ll let you dip in and drift out faster than you thought. You’ll sink in and remember what you thought you forgot….

From the four, came another. But from them, she was one. All encompassing that first, primary thump. Bump, thump, thump. Space, Air, Fire, Water twirled all around her, they were her. She pulled them together, as family, as One. A global, circular trust. Gravitating them all together she made them a promise, to always stay connected. She invited them to reach further, yet hold their nest. A fungal salute to the life that bursts outwards of rumpus and rot and chaos.

Together they announced their name. All together now. Earth.
Our home for right now.